I never cried that hard, never loved that much, just had no idea so much even existed

Remember

Wiser to remember

that nothing except change

is ever constant.

Criticism as an indicator

Criticizing another is a waste of time if you ask me. What can you know about how it is and feels to be another. The only indication criticizing another brings is one regarding your own desires and the walls you feel you have ran into. Those same walls you yourself have created. It is mere reflection, not ‘absolute truth’ – if there is such a thing. This realization forwards your vision into a broader perspective, mostly. The perspective that I can be freed from a point of view I have been accustomed to over the years – a point of view that I have made mine through choices, influences, thinking and the lack hereof, my ‘past’, my physical, mental and emotional dispositions – that perspective right now equals flexibility, freedom to ride the waves of a zillion perspectives and more.

Positive creative thinking

As for now, there is a simple method to check upon your progress.

Despite what “appears” to being going on in “the world at large”, how loving and harmonious are your personal relationships?

Remember that the world, is your mirror. Casting back at you the reflection, of that which you have projected into it. How many arguments do you find yourself engaging in? Is there bitterness and acrimony within the ranks? Do you look at others, and think about how you would like to change them? Or, do you love them, and accept them as they are?

Loving and accepting someone, for who they are, is known as Unconditional Love. That is something you will spend much time working upon, when Graduating into 4th Density Positive. It’s a good idea to get a headstart. Now, loving and accepting someone as they are, does not mean accepting abusive behavior. But, it does mean loving and accepting the person (Soul), not the Soul’s behavior. The behavior is not “who they are”, the Soul within, is who they are.

The quality of your relationships, is an excellent mirror, from which to gauge the quality of your output. Or, in other words, that which you are Creating.

Do you look at a person, and concentrate to a greater or lesser extent, upon the things that you dislike about them and wish would change, or the qualities that you like and admire in them?

Remember that we have said, that all thought, word, and deed, is Creative.

You get back Exactly what you send out.

So, when you send out the thought “Why is she so hard to live with? Why is he always behaving like this?

Ask yourself, what exactly are you doing?

Now focus here, as this is so obvious, you could miss it. And in fact, most do.

Take away the “question” from your sentence, and essentially, you are saying:

“She is so hard to live with”. “He is always behaving like this”.

Do you see what you are doing?

Remember, All thought is creative..

You have just created the very behaviour in that person, that you wish to change. Simply because you do not understand the Law of Radiation and Attraction.

Now, try an experiment:

Take someone in your life, that you love, but sometimes have trouble getting along with.

Think, about the thoughts you have projected about that person. The Negative thoughts. Ask yourself, does the behavior that you do not like in that person, in any way correspond to the thoughts you have been having about them? If you’re honest with yourself, it’s a strong bet that it does.

Sure, they must have behaved that way in the first place, to make you notice that you didn’t like it, but, we all have off days sometimes. The more you focus on that behavior, the more you are going to see of it. It’s just Life, doing what it does, and conforming to your expectations about the way it will be for you.

Now, having recognized this, what will you do about it?

Simply notice your Negative thoughts as they arise, literally, “catch yourself” as you are having them. And then, simply change your perspective. Focus instead, about the things you like about this person. How you love their smile, the sound of their happy laughter; the way they do such and such nice thing, how helpful and loving they can be. Keep putting those positive thoughts out. Persevere, as you may have a bit of negative work to undo first, but just keep catching yourself, and focusing on the positive..

Then prepare yourself for an “almost magical” transformation of your circumstances.

Always monitor your thoughts, and pay attention to their Quality; because what you think about, is directly related to what you will see around you, and what Life will show you. It is the difference between conscious, and subconscious Creation.

I just believed in you.

Sometimes It’s hard to tell

Man needs inspiration

nothing worse then feeling imprisoned with no perspective

we need to inspire one another, regularly, with vision and intelligence

and face the truth

and be courageous when faced with adversity and failure

nothing worse than being wrongly judged

being abused

having no say

being ripped apart

being lied to, cheated

we all need vision after all, clarity, help and support, mutual respect, fairness, understanding, reliability

get stronger

be calm and empowered

trusting ourselves and one another

work, thrive,

always thrive for truth and balance

and above all

respect

and love

“…where were you when I fell from grace, a frozen heart, an empty space…

…something’s changing and it’s your eyes, please don’t speak, you’ll only lie…

…I found treasure not where I thought, peace of mind can’t be bought…

…still I believe…

…I just hang on

suffer well

sometimes it’s hard

it’s hard to tell…”

…but it’s getting better every day

Forgiveness

Forgive yourself

those around you

and past hurts. It’s the only way forward.

The joy of living the present moment is what counts. Feel connected, stay connected.

Simple things.

The Impact of his fall was in proportion to the spread of his dreams

How serious can you get in regard to what happens in your life. How objective can you be when looking at what you did, the consequences of your actions, and your responsibility. Or rather than ‘responsibility’, let’s use the word ‘print’. Your print in the world. Since we never know what the impact of our actions really are. We never get to know that. We just assume and have, or make up, an idea. Actually we never get to know what it is we’ve actually done. We only have an idea, an impression. We project a truth, a reality, which is merely a mix of thoughts we’ve picked up, impressions and feelings we have, experiences, surroundings, likes and dislikes. I think that reality in fact eludes us. You just do with what you are, as you can.

I know, I’m losing everybody here as well as myself.

The thing is, I need to assess what I’ve done and what has occurred in my life lately. For some people, life is simple; deep down, for me too. But I am sensitive, can’t help that – and curious – and see how intricate and fascinating life is. Looking too much into detail can appear as wasting energy. And I understand that point of view totally. But I feel the urge to always look into details, and see the different currents that simultaneously run behind things at all times, and try and make sense out of it all.

Ok, I’m just avoiding the real subject I need to talk about. It’s really difficult. It’s really painful. It’s turning my being upside down. It’s making me reassess my life and my person at the core, which I need to do, and I also need to come to terms with what has just taken place. I’m just not sure if I can write it down here yet though. Maybe a bit early for that.

Follow the natural process, in its own time. To absorb. To move on, to come to terms with it.

And I have no clue as how to.

One day at a time.

I may never get to see nor know my child, who may never get to know his/her real father.

I say “may” because you never know with life.

What to make of this.

I thought for years that life was rational and meaningful, with purpose.

I thought I had figured things out. I had no idea. And thankfully so.

I feel that there is something behind, beautiful and strong, which is going to come out of this. Some truth.

I do feel like an emotional zombie though these days.

My life upside down.

More awareness.

Warmth

God I need warmth. Human warmth.

But it’s ok, really ok. I have faith.

Someone totally new is entering my life – and he or she is the person I will always care for more than anybody else in the world, myself included. I will be a pillar and guide to our baby. And an unending source of love for him or her.

My life is changing drastically for the happier. And I am changing too, in the process.

This is the greatest gift of all. And it’s giving my life real meaning and purpose.

Get Right

I have been too erratic, emotionally unstable, selfish and uncaring. What is happening in my life these days is a reflection of this. You always reap what you sow. And I’m aware that this current state of things I’m in now isn’t entirely “my fault”. If I look at things more carefully I get to understand that this has a lot to do with my past, influences, and situations over which I didn’t have much control. However, as an adult I do have the power to change and grow.

Next week I’m going to go to a psychologist with the aim of dealing with my own issues and improve. It may take some time, pain and effort before I start to feel the positive rewards, but at this point this is my only way to progress. At last. At last I am facing it and want to deal with it.

Life’s challenges. I am grateful to have this opportunity at this stage in my life, this is my chance to grow into maturity.